So, I'm sure most of you have realized I'm more inactive than usual, if you pay attention to me at all I suppose. And just saying I have personal issues right now is both an understatement and no doubt inadequate since I have been pushed by multiple people right now and I cannot take it anymore. So here's the lowdown in all it's messy glory.
First off, MY GRANDMOTHER IS DYING SLOWLY AND PAINFULLY! Get off my freaking back people! She's completely bedridden, can't physically separate food from air, has pneumonia and has a hole in her lung that requires surgery to fix but she cannot get it because it would kill her! She just got back from the hospital and is in hospice in her own home, which is more difficult to see. She has a nurse coming and going, but we're primarily taking care of her, the weekend is usually my responsibility (well, it's my dad's, but he won't actually do much and I do everything for her and just complains that his life is on hold, as if the rest of us aren't?? It's HIS mother!)
This has also led to me having to skip school most of this quarter and I'm afraid of what's going to happen to my schooling at this point as it's only my second quarter. I've contacted people to try and withdraw but I haven't received a response, so I'm scared about the loans I have out right now.
I have absolutely no creative drive as all my energy is going into work, looking for a better job (since mine is barely giving me hours, there's a minor getting more hours than I am even though I've asked for more numerous times) and taking care of my family and grandmother.
Speaking of family, I've been at risk of losing my house for the past 6 months and while we've been SCRAPING BY, it's finally coming to a head, both financially and family fighting. You have no idea how bad it has gotten and I'm not going to go into full detail. Lets say irreplaceable things have been broken and the family is going to split. I might have to quit my job and become a full caretaker for my grandmother since the only place I can actually go is to her house and it's become a bit of a hoarder's place.
This is also why my commissions haven't been getting completed and if you're not willing to wait, let me know. We'll discuss something in private.
But... yeah. There's my reasonings... just... just stop adding to my stress, please?Commission Information